Howie Burbidge’s senior project focuses on how dying isn’t losing
Attending class, completing assignments, raising a child and enduring extensive pain were routine experiences for Howie Burbidge

A few years ago, while sitting in an industrial design class, Burbidge had two epiphanies. He realized, one, he was unskilled at drawing, and two, he could not stop thinking about making his own little films. This realization came after being an international relations major for exactly one day. Burbidge also tested the waters in entrepreneurship before settling on a major he was passionate about. While participating in these different classes, he checked out cameras from the library and created little films. Burbidge withdrew from the industrial design class and signed up to take photography the next semester. He continued to check out cameras and shoot his own films, but found photography was still not the perfect fit.

A couple of weeks into the photography class, Burbidge realized he could see images in his mind before he would shoot them on camera. This was with still photography, but he wanted to practice this with motion. He applied to the film program, coincidentally, using a documentary he filmed about one of his friends who had just beat cancer. He got into the program. Burbidge said, “I chose this major because film is the most powerful form of storytelling. There's no other way to give someone an experience quite like combining video and audio together into film. I was nervous to go into the industry, it has this scary stigma. My wife told me, ‘Don’t be afraid. Be confident enough to chase your dreams.’ “If you’re passionate about something, you’ll work hard enough and you’ll be good at it. Plus, it will be better than choosing something you’re not passionate about in the long run. So, I did it, I chose the thing I was passionate about, and I’m glad I did.”

As he looks back on his time at BYU, Burbidge said the hardest and most-rewarding class he took was TMA 285

“I shot my final film, went and saw some doctors and got some scans. After returning from Christmas break, I was diagnosed with stage four lymphoma in January 2017. Academically, I’m proud of myself for not just getting through that class, but honestly doing my very best. I’m proud of the films I made in that class. I didn't know I had cancer while I was doing it and I’m proud of myself for having the grit to push through.” As a 25-year-old college student and father, Burbidge received chemotherapy treatment for Hodgkin Lymphoma

From those thoughts, Burbidge created the storyline for his senior capstone film project titled “Gather.” In this film, a widower frontiersman and his 10-year-old daughter are trying to gather enough provisions and food before the ensuing winter. Ultimately, they die, but that is not the end of their story, or the film. After several drafts, Burbidge finished the script for “Gather” during the month of September. “I had just finished chemo,” said Burbidge. “I had done so many rounds. My chemotherapy was so powerful because I was at stage four. At the end of it in July, I felt dead — I just felt dead. I find inspiration for my films through my personal experiences. This man and his daughter, they don’t live, but that doesn’t mean they didn’t beat their trials. They’re able to have this completeness in the afterlife that they didn’t have on earth. That’s how I got the inspiration for this. “It's so easy to be scared and it would be so easy to live in fear but we can’t let ourselves do that. It makes me value every single day so much more and makes me not want to waste my time. I’m so glad I chose filmmaking — what I was really passionate about — because life is too short to do something that we aren’t passionate about doing. Yeah, having cancer was hard, but I feel so blessed in a way. I am able to live everyday with this new gratitude and able to do what I love. I’m so excited to share my films, whatever they are, with everyone.”

“Gather” will have a world premiere in September 2018 and tour festivals until its public release in fall 2019. As the director of “Gather,” Burbidge’s biggest lesson he has learned is that filmmaking is a team sport. He said there is so much collaboration that goes into bigger projects and putting one person’s name on a film does not give justice to the hundreds who contributed to its production. He said there is no way he could have done the film by himself. “Looking back,” said Burbidge, “I used to think filmmaking was big budget movies or nothing. Since being in the film program, I have learned you can make beautiful five-minute Youtube videos. As I look forward to my future, I don’t want to limit myself, and there is such a huge possibility in making internet movies right now. It would be constricting to limit myself to making ‘movie movies’ and not letting myself explore the medium and do shorter internet stuff. I think it would be fun to work on smaller crews and do Youtube movies.”

Burbidge said he also loves Youtube and internet movies because of their capability to be shared. He does not want to waste time not sharing the stories he wants to tell, and if he can upload a film in an hour and share it with everyone, that is a powerful way to live his dream. “I want to share stories that will inspire people to not be afraid to chase after their dreams and to not be afraid of failure. I want to share stories that will lift people up and empower them. I want to share my story through filmmaking one day. I feel that I’ve been given unique experiences in life that will help me help people and maybe shine a little bit of light in their life, even if it is through a screen.” To view Burbidge's current and future work, visit his Instagram,